It's been too long

I always find myself saying this, that it's been too long since I've posted here. But again, it does feel that way. I unfortunately have been allowing myself to become consumed in self loathing and self doubt. I feel like somewhere along the way my creativity has just been sucked out of me, drained out of me into the white oblivion that is now the winter wonderland outside my door.

I know, just what everyone wants to read about, another depressed writer whining about writer's block. I just feel like I want to scream, cry and punch a wall all at the same time. Everything that I'm working on creating right now seems like absolute rubbish to me, so much so that I fear showing it to anyone. I feel like I'm struggling to keep my mind afloat. I'm afraid that if I can't create even in my writing, then somehow I am not a whole person.